read your post, im sorry for your loss, do whatever makes you feel better, one side of me think that going forward its a way to show determination and respect for those that stayed with us, but another side of me thinks that sometimes its good to take a break or even just disappear for a while, i had 4 cats that died recently (in this last year) due to leukemia and i think that being able to tell it to others is what help the most in a sense its a way to keep them alive for a bit more or at least this is how i see it.