First off, sorry for your loss. Hopefully this jam was cathartic for you in dealing with that.
Secondly, I think this is a really great effort! In the interest of honest and productive feedback, I'm going to be as detailed as I can below, but I just wanted to preface it with: it doesn't mean your music is bad by any means. It's very pretty, the instruments all sound clean, and it feels well-connected with your descriptions for the most part. There's some good stuff here - and with the feedback you get from this jam, I'm sure your next submission will be even better!
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Feedback:
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A Prayer Beyond Midnight has some great emotion and energy to it! Nice job with the build up and bringing in new instruments one by one. The main melody that comes in around 1:21 - you had been hinting at it before that point, and it certainly translated. Compositionally speaking, it could have used some more impact - maybe some different chords right before that point to build tension? Or having more of a crescendo right before the mini-breakdown. when the strings come in harder. I feel like the idea was there, it just needs to be built out a little more to deliver properly.
The rest of the track feels good - instruments compliment each other well in terms of tonality. The synths play a solid support role and work well.The wind instrument in the beginning feels on point, but it may want to take more of a backseat right after when the next instrument comes in. On listening again, it sounds like you were doing the same kind of leading theme with the string section @ around 0:49 that you did @ 1:21, but I had missed it the first time.
Overall, I think having a defining leading instrument throughout would really help bring home this track. Some parts of the track feel like they have it, some not as much. The movement is good with the build-up on the drums and the staccato string notes towards the end, but without that lead standing out it just sounds like good bits here and there thrown together. Spend sometime playing with the individual volume levels of your instruments, and change them up or down as needed as the song progresses. If the strings need to take center stage, give them some space both compositionally and in the mix to do that.
Last thing I would say here: sometimes less is more. It can be really cool to jam a whole bunch of notes into a tiny space. Those couple of bars might sound awesome to you, but without the proper context in a song they will always lose their impact. Sometimes less is more, and generally the more notes that an instrument is playing the less impact they are going to have, especially as a lead. Think about some classic rock guitar melodies and solos - the best ones strike a balance between quick sets of notes and long, drawn out ones (think Hotel California, for example) and even a song with incredibly fast guitar playing (Mr. Crowley) still has rests and longer notes inbetween. If the speed or frequency of your notes doesn't change too much, they can either get boring, or, in the case of your strings - kind of all blend together.
That was a lot of words, so to summarize: powerful leads create powerful songs. Give them space, give them dynamics, give them energy, maybe some tension, and do that not only with the instruments themselves but with the rest of the song as a whole.